12:08 PM

Something Positive

NOT all my entries are negative
I am trying to look at the brighter side of life
and I owe that to my friend you know who you are

thats not yet the positive entry im talking about

just recently, one of my cousin got married. unexpected and on a foreign land and to a foreigner.
I asked her why and how the hell it happened.
she said you will never know its coming and once its there right in front of you, you just go ahead and grab it.
and its so funny how we were giggling like high school girls when she told me the story behind it.
made me realize that fairy tales still do come true. theres just no happy ending nor sad ending coz it never ends. life is a fairy tale. and its up to you if you want it to be a good story or not.

It also made me remember a few things that I was told when I was a newbie in the game called love...

Things to do to spice up a relationship and how to make it last

Everyday you need to see the little things that your partner do. It could be anything - cooking/preparing lunch for you, givin you a neck rub, or just by saying I love you out of the blue.

Everyday you need to laugh. Not only that it helps the relationship to be healthy it will also make you feel good and young.

Try not to cry when you are fighting. Words will become mumbly and unrecognizable when your sobbing. Fix things up like grown ups all the time.

Find a hobby. Do something that both of you loves to do.

Be spontaneous. Routinary relationship is BORING.

Have some Space. This ofcourse depends on how much time you spend with each other. You have to miss your partner sometimes.

Every year remember why you are in love with your partner and why did you choose him and why he holds that special spot and not anybody else. It could be anything. Is it the way he announce his farts or the way he holds your hand? or could be something deeper.

And of course.. be not just his girlfriend.. but also his best friend.

So there you go. Sounds easy but trust me when theres pain you will forget all about this and that pain will poison you and turn you into something self-destructive.

I do have a "self-destruct" button. I havnt pressed it yet. You wanna know where it is located? =)

11:58 PM

Thats what you get!

hey sherie
you make me want to come out again
well im not gonna use you to hurt anybody today, im just here to say a few words to hurt you even more.
I just want to say something to prove that I am RIGHT all along
so what did you get for letting your heart run wild again?
ahh yes, NOTHING but pain
but dont worry
that makes you human, your weak after all and thats all youll ever gonna get
so to tackle at least a few things that really makes you feel icky are, first and foremost,
the line that you play on your head over and over again - "Im always thinking of you"
oohh yeah, that makes it so disgusting

tell me... why him?

you have forgotten and actually believed some of the stuff that you dont have faith with?
like for example, the distance.
you always tell yourself when someone is not physically there
he is as good as nothing
so why did you forget that?
and the fact that you dont know him that well, this is a first, a major stupidity on your part,
you almost believed that relationship is a good thing. what a crap.
but yeah you thought he is your imaginary guy that came to life but then again you were wrong.
but okay lets give him credit, for his honesty, and yeah he came close.
BUT he JUST came close.

I am also goin to say some positive things
that actually made you open your eyes and see whos been there on your side all along that cares and love you
get into a relationship. youve been single for too long. your best at solving your problem with another problem.
just go and play and have fun

so now, do what you do best. youve been good enough for too long. you know what i mean.

--your darker side

oh wait! you know you dont have any other side than me. so go ahead and throw that wings just use the horns. its more fun and much safer =P

9:21 AM


Funny how quick the milk turns sour

Promises turn to dust

Wedding bells just turn to rust

Trust into mistrust

Lips that promise - fear the worst

Tongue so sharp - the bubble burst

Just into unjust

I hear a funny hesitation

Of a heart that's never really sure

Can't keep on tryin'

If you're looking for more

almost had me thinkin'

Almost convince me

You came real close

So maybe I'll be here

Maybe I'll see you around