4:39 PM

for Bugoy

when I talked to your cousin I was waiting for him to tell me the words "JOKE LANG" when he said your already gone.
Till now i still wish these are all part of a bad dream.
your another reason why I will force myself to believe theres afterlife
I will definitely see you again soon maybe in another lifetime
but in this lifetime,
I will be forever grateful that, even if you are taken away too soon, we have crossed paths
you have become like a brother to me and I will never forget you
thank you for being a brother to my sisters too
thanks for all the happy memories that you become a part of during my college life
most of all those trippings outside our college life
and thanks for the dog you once gave me
advance happy birthday next month
I knew your entire 27 years of existence are all good.
Ill see you again someday Dude!
for now I have to stay on earth and endure more pain that life has to throw at me
I, for sure, am going to miss you a LOT...
ill see you when i get there.♥

8:06 AM


why do i keep thinking about you
do you think about me too?
why am i willing to wait?
am i really waiting for something?
how will i know if a sacrifice is worth it?
how long can i hold on?
why do i catch a breath when i think of you?
and not feel the same towards others who is just within my reach.
why cant i let this feeling go away?
why do i want to believe now that something can really last forever?
i used to think i can live alone.
why do i feel incomplete without you?
why do i have to feel like this?
i havnt done anything wrong
i dont deserve this.
why is it that all of a sudden i wanna know what love is?
why am i willing to give relationship another shot.
why am i getting myself ready for another pain?
when i have told myself that it will never happen again.
why do i feel weak?
when i know that im tougher than this.
why dont i give a damn if your playing with me or not?
why do i keep hoping that you are serious if i really dont know if you are?
i guess im just gonna have to let things happen.
see what tomorrow will bring
live for the day
try to keep on breathing
maybe just like before,
this will soon be over
even before i knew its over

5:10 PM


i repeat! i would.... amputate myself if there is a single GUY living on planet earth who knows or CAN behave!!!!!!!

they can only celibate for a maximum of 6 months....

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